Early morning randomness...

Ok....so, it's 2:45 in the morning, and I can't sleep. So, I figure...what better time, than to blog. The big question is.....what to blog about? I could blog about the fact that I'm going to be 20 next month. Marcus (my boyfriend of 2 months as of yesterday) is going to take me to see Joseph and the Technicolor Dream Coat. Apparently, it's a very good production. Atleast, that's what mom said. I'm pretty excited. It's so nice to be with someone who cares so much about me, and I don't have to worry about if he's cheating on me, if he's going to break up with me, or any major drama for that matter. I've never been one for drama.

I'm house sitting for my parents for the next week. It's going to be nice to spend some time with Jackson. We have a menu all made out and everything. We'll probably just hang out and chill. But, it should still be pretty fun. Perhaps, I can talk him into a board game of sort. Possibly Sorry?

Ok, well as short as this one was, I'm sure I'll come up with a better topic later this week. Until then...ciao!

~emily

Loss...

You know....the closest thing I've ever had die to me, was a couple of fish. The next closest thing to that, is saying goodbye to someone that you know you will never get to be with ever again. In this instance, my someone is my dog Chloe. For reasons, which I won't get into right now, I recently had to give her to an animal shelter. That was one of the hardest things I have ever had to to do. After I did, I cried all the way home. That was probably one of the saddest days that I have ever had. It's been about a week or so since it has happened. And, I've heard that saying that time heals the heart...which I can believe. I was doing fine, until tonight when I got an email from a girl on myspace saying that she found my dog. So, by this, it obviously means that Chloe's new owners, were doing a shitty job of taking care of her. The worst part is, is now I'm feeling the pain of losing her all over again....the girl who wrote me, posted a picture of chloe on her myspace page, and the song on her page just happend to be Somewhere Over The Rainbow, by IZ.....and for some reason it just got me....I have been in tears ever since. I can't deal with this anymore...I am going to call the animal shelter tomorrow, and they will not like what they hear. I'm usually a pretty happy person, but this is beyond handling...I"m at my parent's house right now, but out here, I feel so helpless...I need to go home....I'll talk to you guys later...

~emily