Loss...

You know....the closest thing I've ever had die to me, was a couple of fish. The next closest thing to that, is saying goodbye to someone that you know you will never get to be with ever again. In this instance, my someone is my dog Chloe. For reasons, which I won't get into right now, I recently had to give her to an animal shelter. That was one of the hardest things I have ever had to to do. After I did, I cried all the way home. That was probably one of the saddest days that I have ever had. It's been about a week or so since it has happened. And, I've heard that saying that time heals the heart...which I can believe. I was doing fine, until tonight when I got an email from a girl on myspace saying that she found my dog. So, by this, it obviously means that Chloe's new owners, were doing a shitty job of taking care of her. The worst part is, is now I'm feeling the pain of losing her all over again....the girl who wrote me, posted a picture of chloe on her myspace page, and the song on her page just happend to be Somewhere Over The Rainbow, by IZ.....and for some reason it just got me....I have been in tears ever since. I can't deal with this anymore...I am going to call the animal shelter tomorrow, and they will not like what they hear. I'm usually a pretty happy person, but this is beyond handling...I"m at my parent's house right now, but out here, I feel so helpless...I need to go home....I'll talk to you guys later...

~emily